第3章 PART ONE(3)

At this moment his mother was sitting in some place deep down beneath him,with his young sister in her arms.He did not re-member his sister at all,except as a tiny,feeble baby,always silent, with large,watchful eyes.Both of them were looking up at him. They were down in some subterranean place—the bottom of a well, for instance,or a very deep grave—but it was a place which,already far below him,was itself moving downwards.They were in the sa-loon of a sinking ship,looking up at him through the darkening wa-ter.There was still air in the saloon,they could still see him and he them,but all the while they were sinking down,down into the green waters which in another moment must hide them from sight forev-er.He was out in the light and air while they were being sucked down to death,and they were down there because he was up here. He knew it and they knew it,and he could see the knowledge in their faces.There was no reproach either in their faces or in their hearts,only the knowledge that they must die in order that he might remain alive,and that this was part of the unavoidable order of things.

He could not remember what had happened,but he knew in his dream that in some way the lives of his mother and his sister had been sacrificed to his own.It was one of those dreams which,while retaining the characteristic dream scenery,are a continuation of one's intellectual life,and in which one becomes aware of facts and ideas which still seem new and valuable after one is awake.The thing that now suddenly struck Winston was that his mother's death,nearly thirty years ago,had been tragic and sorrowful in a way that was no longer possible.Tragedy,he perceived,belonged to the ancient time,to a time when there was still privacy,love,and friendship,and when the members of a family stood by one another without needing to know the reason.His mother's memory tore at his heart because she had died loving him,when he was too young and selfish to love her in return,and because somehow,he did not remember how,she had sacrificed herself to a conception of loyalty that was private and unalterable.Such things,he saw,could not hap-pen today.Today there were fear,hatred,and pain,but no dignity of emotion,or deep or complex sorrows.All this he seemed to see in the large eyes of his mother and his sister,looking up at him through the green water,hundreds of fathoms down and still sink-ing.

Suddenly he was standing on short springy turf,on a summer evening when the slanting rays of the sun gilded the ground.The landscape that he was looking at recurred so often in his dreams that he was never fully certain whether or not he had seen it in the real world.In his waking thoughts he called it the Golden Country. It was an old,rabbit-bitten pasture,with a foot track wandering across it and a molehole here and there.In the ragged hedge on the opposite side of the field the boughs of the elm trees were swaying very faintly in the breeze,their leaves just stirring in dense masses like women's hair.Somewhere near at hand,though out of sight, there was a clear,slow-moving stream where dace were swimming in the pools under the willow trees.

The girl with dark hair was coming toward him across the field.With what seemed a single movement she tore off her clothes and flung them disdainfully aside.Her body was white and smooth, but it aroused no desire in him,indeed he barely looked at it.What overwhelmed him in that instant was admiration for the gesture with which she had thrown her clothes aside.With its grace and carelessness it seemed to annihilate a whole culture,a whole system of thought,as though Big Brother and the Party and the Thought Police could all be swept into nothingness by a single splendid movement of the arm.That too was a gesture belonging to the ancient time.Winston woke up with the word"Shakespeare"on his lips.

The telescreen was giving forth an ear-splitting whistle which continued on the same note for thirty seconds.It was nought seven-fifteen,getting-up time for office workers.Winston wrenched his body out of bed—naked,for a member of the Outer Party received only three thousand clothing coupons annually,and a suit of paja-mas was six hudred—and seized a dingy singlet and a pair of shorts that were lying across a chair.The Physical Jerks would begin in three minutes.The next moment he was doubled up by a violent coughing fit which nearly always attacked him soon after waking up.It emptied his lungs so completely that he could only begin breathing again by lying on his back and taking a series of deep gasps.His veins had swelled with the effort of the cough,and the varicose ulcer had started itching.

"Thirty to forty group!"yapped a piercing female voice."Thir-ty to forty group! Take your places,please.Thirties to forties!"

Winston sprang to attention in front of the telescreen,upon which the image of a youngish woman,scrawny but muscular, dressed in tunic and gym shoes,had already appeared.

"Arms bending and stretching!"she rapped out."Take your time by me.One,two,three,four!One,two,three,four! Come on, comrades,put a bit of life into it!One,two,three four!One two, three,four!..."

The pain of the coughing fit had not quite driven out of Win-ston's mind the impression made by his dream,and the rhythmic movements of the exercise restored it somewhat.As he mechanical-ly shot his arms back and forth,wearing on his face the look of grim enjoyment which was considered proper during the Physical Jerks,he was struggling to think his way backward into the dim pe-riod of his early childhood.It was extraordinarily difficult.Beyond the late fifties everything faded.When there were no external re-cords that you could refer to,even the outline of your own life lost its sharpness.You remembered huge events which had quite proba-bly not happened,you remembered the details of incidents without being able to recapture their atmosphere,and there were long blank periods to which you could assign nothing.Everything had been dif-ferent then.Even the names of countries,and their shapes on the map,had been different.Airstrip One,for instance,had not been so called in those days:it had been called England or Britain,though London,he felt fairly certain,had always been called London.

Winston could not definitely remember a time when his coun-try had not been at war,but it was evident that there had been a fairly long interval of peace during his childhood,because one of his early memories was of an air raid which appeared to take everyone by surprise.Perhaps it was the time when the atomic bomb had fall-en on Colchester.He did not remember the raid itself,but he did re-member his father's hand clutching his own as they hurried down, down,down into some place deep in the earth,round and round a spiral staircase which rang under his feet and which finally so wea-ried his legs that he began whimpering and they had to stop and rest.His mother,in her slow,dreamy way,was following a long way behind them.She was carrying his baby sister—or perhaps it was only a bundle of blankets that she was carrying:he was not certain whether his sister had been born then.Finally they had emerged in-to a noisy,crowded place which he had realized to be a Tube sta-tion.

There were people sitting all over the stone-flagged floor,and other people,packed tightly together,were sitting on metal bunks, one above the other.Winston and his mother and father found themselves a place on the floor,and near them an old man and an old woman were sitting side by side on a bunk.The old man had on a decent dark suit and a black cloth cap pushed back from very white hair; his face was scarlet and his eyes were blue and full of tears.He reeked of gin.It seemed to breathe out of his skin in place of sweat,and one could have fancied that the tears welling from his eyes were pure gin.But though slightly drunk he was also suffering under some grief that was genuine and unbearable.In his childish way Winston grasped that some terrible thing,something that was beyond forgiveness and could never be remedied,had just happened. It also seemed to him that he knew what it was.Someone whom the old man loved, a little granddaughter,perhaps, had been killed.Ev-ery few minutes the old man kept repeating:

"We didn't ought to 'ave trusted 'em.I said so,Ma,didn't I? That's what comes of trusting 'em.I said so all along.We didn't ought to 'ave trusted the buggers."

But which buggers they didn't ought to have trusted Winston could not now remember.

Since about that time, war had been literally continuous, though strictly speaking it had not always been the same war.For several months during his childhood there had been confused street fighting in London itself,some of which he remembered vividly.But to trace out the history of the whole period,to say who was fighting whom at any given moment,would have been utterly impossible, since no written record,and no spoken word,ever made mention of any other alignment than the existing one.At this moment,for ex-ample,in 1984 (if it was 1984),Oceania was at war with Eurasia and in alliance with Eastasia.In no public or private utterance was it ever admitted that the three powers had at any time been grouped along different lines.Actually,as Winston well knew,it was only four years since Oceania had been at war with Eastasia and in alli-ance with Eurasia.But that was merely a piece of furtive knowledge which he happened to possess because his memory was not satisfac-torily under control.Officially the change of partners had never hap-pened.Oceania was at war with Eurasia:therefore Oceania had al-ways been at war with Eurasia.The enemy of the moment always represented absolute evil,and it followed that any past or future agreement with him was impossible.

The frightening thing,he reflected for the ten thousandth time as he forced his shoulders painfully backward (with hands on hips, they were gyrating their bodies from the waist,an exercise that was supposed to be good for the back muscles)—the frightening thing was that it might all be true.If the Party could thrust its hand into the past and say of this or that event,it never happened—that, surely,was more terrifying than mere torture and death.

The Party said that Oceania had never been in alliance with Eurasia.He,Winston Smith,knew that Oceania had been in alliance with Eurasia as short a time as four years ago.But where did that knowledge exist? Only in his own consciousness,which in any case must soon be annihilated.And if all others accepted the lie which the Party imposed—if all records told the same tale—then the lie passed into history and became truth."Who controls the past,"ran the Party slogan,"controls the future:who controls the present controls the past."And yet the past,though of its nature alterable, never had been altered.Whatever was true now was true from ever-lasting to everlasting.It was quite simple.All that was needed was an unending series of victories over your own memory."Reality con-trol",they called it;in Newspeak,"doublethink".

"Stand easy!"barked the instructress,a little more genially.

Winston sank his arms to his sides and slowly refilled his lungs with air.His mind slid away into the labyrinthine world of double-think.To know and not to know,to be conscious of complete truth-fulness while telling carefully constructed lies,to hold simultane-ously two opinions which cancelled out,knowing them to be contra-dictory and believing in both of them,to use logic against logic,to repudiate morality while laying claim to it,to believe that democracy was impossible and that the Party was the guardian of democracy,to for-get whatever it was necessary to forget,then to draw it back into memo-ry again at the moment when it was needed,and then promptly to forget it again, and above all,to apply the same process to the process itself.—That was the ultimate subtlety:consciously to induce unconsciousness, and then,once again,to become unconscious of the act of hypnosis you had just performed.Even to understand the word"doublethink"involved the use of doublethink.

The instructress had called them to attention again."And now let's see which of us can touch our toes!"she said enthusiastically."Right over from the hips,please,comrades.One-two!One-two!..."

Winston loathed this exercise,which sent shooting pains all the way from his heels to his buttocks and often ended by bringing on another coughing fit.The half-pleasant quality went out of his medi-tations.The past,he reflected,had not merely been altered,it had been actually destroyed.For how could you establish even the most obvious fact when there existed no record outside your own memo-ry? He tried to remember in what year he had first heard mention of Big Brother.He thought it must have been at some time in the sixties,but it was impossible to be certain.In the Party histories,of course,Big Brother figured as the leader and guardian of the Revo-lution since its very earliest days.His exploits had been gradually pushed backwards in time until already they extended into the fabu-lous world of the Forties and the Thirties,when the capitalists in their strange cylindrical hats still rode through the streets of Lon-don in great gleaming motor-cars or horse carriages with glass sides.There was no knowing how much of this legend was true and how much invented.Winston could not even remember at what date the Party itself had come into existence.He did not believe he had ever heard the word Ingsoc before 1960,but it was possible that in its Oldspeak form—"English Socialism",that is to say—it had been current earlier.Everything melted into mist.Sometimes,indeed,you could put your finger on a definite lie.It was not true,for example, as was claimed in the Party history books,that the Party had inven-ted airplanes.He remembered airplanes since his earliest childhood. But you could prove nothing.There was never any evidence.Just once in his whole life he had held in his hands unmistakable docu-mentary proof of the falsification of a historical fact.And on that oc-casion—.

"Smith!"screamed the shrewish voice from the telescreen."6079 Smith W.! Yes,you! Bend lower,please! You can do better than that.You're not trying.Lower,please! That's better,com-rade.Now stand at ease,the whole squad,and watch me."

A sudden hot sweat had broken out all over Winston's body. His face remained completely inscrutable.Never show dismay! Never show resentment! A single flicker of the eyes could give you away.He stood watching while the instructress raised her arms above her head and—one could not say gracefully,but with remark able neatness and efficiency—bent over and tucked the first joint of her fingers under her toes.

"There,comrades! That's how I want to see you doing it. Watch me again.I'm thirty-nine and I've had four children.Now look."She bent over again."You see my knees aren't bent.You can all do it if you want to,"she added as she straightened herself up."Anyone under forty-five is perfectly capable of touching his toes. We don't all have the privilege of fighting in the front line,but at least we can all keep fit.Remember our boys on the Malabar front! And the sailors in the Floating Fortresses! Just think what they have to put up with.Now try again.That's better,comrade,that's much better,"she added encouragingly as Winston,with a violent lunge,succeeded in touching his toes with knees unbent,for the first time in several years.

Chapter 4

W ith the deep,unconscious sigh which not even the near-ness of the telescreen could prevent him from utteringwhen his day's work started,Winston pulled the speak-write toward him,blew the dust from its mouthpiece,and put on his spectacles.Then he unrolled and clipped together four small cyl-inders of paper which had already flopped out of the pneumatic tube on the right-hand side of his desk.

In the walls of the cubicle there were three orifices.To the right of the speakwrite,a small pneumatic tube for written messa-ges; to the left,a larger one for newspapers;and in the side wall, within easy reach of Winston's arm,a large oblong slit protected by a wire grating.This last was for the disposal of waste paper.Similar slits existed in thousands or tens of thousands throughout the building,not only in every room but at short intervals in every cor-ridor.For some reason they were nicknamed memory holes.When one knew that any document was due for destruction,or even when one saw a scrap of waste paper lying about,it was an automatic ac-tion to lift the flap of the nearest memory hole and drop it in, whereupon it would be whirled away on a current of warm air to the enormous furnaces which were hidden somewhere in the reces-ses of the building.

Winston examined the four slips of paper which he had un-rolled.Each contained a message of only one or two lines,in the ab-breviated jargon—not actually Newspeak,but consisting largely of Newspeak words—which was used in the Ministry for internal pur-poses.They ran:

times 1 7.3.84 bb speech malreported africa rectify

times 19.12.83 forecasts 3yp 4th quarter 83 misprints verify current issue

times 14.2.84 miniplenty malquoted chocolate rectify

times 3.12.83 reporting bb dayorder doubleplusungood refs un-persons rewrite fullwise upsub antefiling.

With a faint feeling of satisfaction Winston laid the fourth message aside.It was an intricate and responsible job and had better be dealt with last.The other three were routine matters,though the second one would probably mean some tedious wading through lists of figures.

Winston dialled"back numbers"on the telescreen and called for the appropriate issues of the Times,which slid out of the pneu-matic tube after only a few minutes'delay.The messages he had re-ceived referred to articles or news items which for one reason or an-other it was thought necessary to alter,or,as the official phrase had it,to rectify.For example,it appeared from The Times of the seven-teenth of March that Big Brother,in his speech of the previous day, had predicted that the South Indian front would remain quiet but that a Eurasian offensive would shortly be launched in North Afri-ca.As it happened,the Eurasian Higher Command had launched its offensive in South India and left North Africa alone.It was therefore necessary to rewrite a paragraph of Big Brother's speech in such a way as to make him predict the thing that had actually happened.Or again,the time s of the nineteenth of December had published the official forecasts of the output of various classes of consumption goods in the fourth quarter of 1983,which was also the sixth quar-ter of the Ninth Three-Year Plan.Today's issue contained a state-ment of the actual output,from which it appeared that the forecasts were in every instance grossly wrong.Winston's job was to rectify the original figures by making them agree with the later ones.As for the third message,it referred to a very simple error which could be set right in a couple of minutes.As short a time ago as February, the Ministry of Plenty had issued a promise (a"categorical pledge"were the official words) that there would be no reduction of the chocolate ration during 1984.Actually,as Winston was aware,the chocolate ration was to be reduced from thirty grams to twenty at the end of the present week.All that was needed was to substitute for the original promise a warning that it would probably be neces-sary to reduce the ration at some time in April.

As soon as Winston had dealt with each of the messages,he clipped his speakwritten corrections to the appropriate copy of the time s"and pushed them into the pneumatic tube.Then,with a movement which was as nearly as possible unconscious,he crum-pled up the original message and any notes that he himself had made,and dropped them into the memory hole to be devoured by the flames.

What happened in the unseen labyrinth to which the pneumatic tubes led,he did not know in detail,but he did know in general terms.As soon as all the corrections which happened to be necessa-ry in any particular number of"the time s"had been assembled and collated,that number would be reprinted,the original copy de-stroyed,and the corrected copy placed on the files in its stead.This process of continuous alteration was applied not only to news papers,but to books,periodicals,pamphlets,posters,leaflets,films, sound tracks,cartoons,photographs—to every kind of literature or documentation which might conceivably hold any political or ideo-logical significance.Day by day and almost minute by minute the past was brought up to date.In this way every prediction made by the Party could be shown by documentary evidence to have been correct,nor was any item of news,or any expression of opinion, which conflicted with the needs of the moment,ever allowed to re-main on record.All history was a palimpsest,scraped clean and rein-scribed exactly as often as was necessary.In no case would it have been possible,once the deed was done,to prove that any falsifica-tion had taken place.The largest section of the Records Depart-ment,far larger than the one on which Winston worked,consisted simply of persons whose duty it was to track down and collect all copies of books,newspapers,and other documents which had been superseded and were due for destruction.A number of the time s which might,because of changes in political alignment,or mistaken prophecies uttered by Big Brother,have been rewritten a dozen times still stood on the files bearing its original date,and no other copy existed to contradict it.Books,also,were recalled and rewritten again and again,and were invariably reissued without any admission that any alteration had been made.Even the written instructions which Winston received,and which he invariably got rid of as soon as he had dealt with them,never stated or implied that an act of for-gery was to be committed; always the reference was to slips,er-rors,misprints,or misquotations which it was necessary to put right in the interests of accuracy.

But actually,he thought as he readjusted the Ministry of Plen-ty's figures,it was not even forgery.It was merely the substitution of one piece of nonsense for another.Most of the material that you were dealing with had no connexion with anything in the real world,not even the kind of connexion that is contained in a direct lie.Statistics were just as much a fantasy in their original version as in their rectified version.A great deal of the time you were expected to make them up out of your head.For example,the Ministry of Plenty's forecast had estimated the output of boots for the quarter at a hundred and fory-five million pairs.The actual output was given as sixty-two millions.Winston,however,in rewriting the forecast, marked the figure down to fifty-seven millions,so as to allow for the usual claim that the quota had been over filled.In any case,six-ty-two millions was no nearer the truth than fifty-seven millions,or than a hundred and forty-five millions.Very likely no boots had been produced at all.Likelier still,nobody knew how many had been produced,much less cared.All one knew was that every quarter as-tronomical numbers of boots were produced on paper,while per-haps half the population of Oceania went barefoot.And so it was with every class of recorded fact,great or small.Everything faded a-way into a shadow-world in which,finally,even the date of the year had become uncertain.

Winston glanced across the hall.In the corresponding cubicle on the other side a small,precise-looking,dark-chinned man named Tillotson was working steadily away,with a folded newspaper on his knee and his mouth very close to the mouthpiece of the speak-write.He had the air of trying to keep what he was saying a secret between himself and the telescreen.He looked up,and his spectacles darted a hostile flash in Winston's direction.

Winston hardly knew Tillotson,and had no idea what work he was employed on.People in the Records Department did not readily talk about their jobs.In the long,windowless hall,with its double row of cubicles and its endless rustle of papers and hum of voices murmuring into speakwrites,there were quite a dozen people whom Winston did not even know by name,though he daily saw them hurrying to and fro in the corridors or gesticulating in the Two Mi-nutes Hate.He knew that in the cubicle next to him the little woman with sandy hair toiled day in day out,simply at tracking down and deleting from the press the names of people who had been vaporized and were therefore considered never to have existed. There was a certain fitness in this,since her own husband had been vaporized a couple of years earlier.And a few cubicles away a mild, ineffectual,dreamy creature named Ampleforth,with very hairy ears and a surprising talent for j uggling with rhymes and meters, was engaged in producing garbled versions—definitive texts,they were called—of poems which had become ideologically offensive, but which for one reason or another were to be retained in the an-thologies.And this hall,with its fifty workers or thereabouts,was only one sub-section,a single cell,as it were,in the huge complexity of the Records Department.Beyond, above, below, were other swarms of workers engaged in an unimaginable multitude of jobs. There were the huge printing shops with their sub-editors,their ty-pography experts,and their elaborately equipped studios for the fa-king of photographs.There was the teleprograms section with its engineers,its producers,and its teams of actors specially chosen for their skill in imitating voices.There were the armies of reference clerks whose job was simply to draw up lists of books and periodi-cals which were due for recall.There were the vast repositories where the corrected documents were stored,and the hidden fur-naces where the original copies were destroyed.And somehow or other,quite anonymous,there were the directing brains who coordi-nated the whole effort and laid down the lines of policy which made it necessary that this fragment of the past should be preserved,that one falsified,and the other rubbed out of existence.