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When all debts,his own and Coralie's,were paid,he put the three hundred francs which remained into Berenice's hands,bidding her to refuse him money if he asked her for it.He was afraid of a return of the gambler's frenzy.Lucien worked away gloomily in a sort of cold,speechless fury,putting forth all his powers into witty articles,written by the light of the lamp at Coralie's bedside.Whenever he looked up in search of ideas,his eyes fell on that beloved face,white as porcelain,fair with the beauty that belongs to the dying,and he saw a smile on her pale lips,and her eyes,grown bright with a more consuming pain than physical suffering,always turned on his face.
Lucien sent in his work,but he could not leave the house to worry editors,and his articles did not appear.When he at last made up his mind to go to the office,he met with a cool reception from Theodore Gaillard,who had advanced him money,and turned his literary diamonds to good account afterwards.
"Take care,my dear fellow,you are falling off,"he said."You must not let yourself down,your work wants inspiration!""That little Lucien has written himself out with his romance and his first articles,"cried Felicien Vernou,Merlin,and the whole chorus of his enemies,whenever his name came up at Dauriat's or the Vaudeville."The work he is sending us is pitiable.""To have written oneself out"(in the slang of journalism),is a verdict very hard to live down.It passed everywhere from mouth to mouth,ruining Lucien,all unsuspicious as he was.And,indeed,his burdens were too heavy for his strength.In the midst of a heavy strain of work,he was sued for the bills which he had drawn in David Sechard's name.He had recourse to Camusot's experience,and Coralie's sometime adorer was generous enough to assist the man she loved.The intolerable situation lasted for two whole months;the days being diversified by stamped papers handed over to Desroches,a friend of Bixiou,Blondet,and des Lupeaulx.
Early in August,Bianchon told them that Coralie's condition was hopeless--she had only a few days to live.Those days were spent in tears by Berenice and Lucien;they could not hide their grief from the dying girl,and she was broken-hearted for Lucien's sake.
Some strange change was working in Coralie.She would have Lucien bring a priest;she must be reconciled to the Church and die in peace.
Coralie died as a Christian;her repentance was sincere.Her agony and death took all energy and heart out of Lucien.He sank into a low chair at the foot of the bed,and never took his eyes off her till Death brought the end of her suffering.It was five o'clock in the morning.Some singing-bird lighting upon a flower-pot on the window-sill,twittered a few notes.Berenice,kneeling by the bedside,was covering a hand fast growing cold with kisses and tears.On the chimney-piece there lay eleven sous.
Lucien went out.Despair made him beg for money to lay Coralie in her grave.He had wild thoughts of flinging himself at the Marquise d'Espard's feet,of entreating the Comte du Chatelet,Mme.de Bargeton,Mlle.des Touches,nay,that terrible dandy of a de Marsay.
All his pride had gone with his strength.He would have enlisted as a common soldier at that moment for money.He walked on with a slouching,feverish gait known to all the unhappy,reached Camille Maupin's house,entered,careless of his disordered dress,and sent in a message.He entreated Mlle.des Touches to see him for a moment.
"Mademoiselle only went to bed at three o'clock this morning,"said the servant,"and no one would dare to disturb her until she rings.""When does she ring?"
"Never before ten o'clock."
Then Lucien wrote one of those harrowing appeals in which the well-dressed beggar flings all pride and self-respect to the winds.One evening,not so very long ago,when Lousteau had told him of the abject begging letters which Finot received,Lucien had thought it impossible that any creature would sink so low;and now,carried away by his pen,he had gone further,it may be,than other unlucky wretches upon the same road.He did not suspect,in his fever and imbecility,that he had just written a masterpiece of pathos.On his way home along the Boulevards,he met Barbet.
"Barbet!"he begged,holding out his hand."Five hundred francs!""No.Two hundred,"returned the other.
"Ah!then you have a heart."
"Yes;but I am a man of business as well.I have lost a lot of money through you,"he concluded,after giving the history of the failure of Fendant and Cavalier,"will you put me in the way of making some?"Lucien quivered.
"You are a poet.You ought to understand all kinds of poetry,"continued the little publisher."I want a few rollicking songs at this moment to put along with some more by different authors,or they will be down upon me over the copyright.I want to have a good collection to sell on the streets at ten sous.If you care to let me have ten good drinking-songs by to-morrow morning,or something spicy,--you know the sort of thing,eh!--I will pay you two hundred francs."When Lucien returned home,he found Coralie stretched out straight and stiff on a pallet-bed;Berenice,with many tears,had wrapped her in a coarse linen sheet,and put lighted candles at the four corners of the bed.Coralie's face had taken that strange,delicate beauty of death which so vividly impresses the living with the idea of absolute calm;she looked like some white girl in a decline;it seemed as if those pale,crimson lips must open and murmur the name which had blended with the name of God in the last words that she uttered before she died.